クラブ・エロティカ（エロスのおはなし会）始動します！

よく「言葉が「降りて」きた」とか言いますが、実はわたしその表現があまり好きではなかった。 
だけど、文字通り、降りてくることってあるんだね。 
歩いてたら不意に降りてきた。 

女でいることの気持ち良さ＝エロス。 


女でいる（女である、ではない）ことの気持ち良さを知っている状態をエロスと呼ぶのだと。 
（実際の行為のときの話ではなく、ふだんの在り方の話） 


別にそれ↓を「エロい」とか言ってもいいんだけど、わたしにとって 
グラビアとかああいうのはエロスじゃない。 
からだの線を強調する服を着たり胸の谷間やうなじ、肩、背中を見せたりすることがエロスじゃない。 
下ネタガンガン飛ばせるからってそれはエロスじゃない。 
（※それを否定してるわけではないです。ご存じの通りわたしもそういうとこいっぱいあるのでw） 


自分が女でいることをゆるし、認めたら、ただ自分でいるだけで気持ちいい。そしたら恋も愛も蜜なパートナーシップも気がついたらそこにある。 


そして、ずいぶん前にこんなブログを書いたことがあったんだけど、 
「その隙間をどうするか。」（http://ameblo.jp/yukey-purplesky/entry-11325626501.html） 
その「隙間」を埋めるのはコレだ―――ッッって思ったのです。 

メイクとか、ネイルとか、お洋服とか、 
「こんなふうにしたらもっと素敵よ」 
って大枚はたいてアドバイスをもらっても、その場ではそんな気になるんだけど続かない。 
ソレって結局、 
「自分が女でいることをゆるしてない、認めてない、楽しんでない」からだよね。 

その「隙間」を埋めるべく、 
「隙間」を埋めるKeyである、 
「エロス」をテーマに据えたおはなし会の主宰をはじめます♡ 

「クラブ・エロティカ（エロスのおはなし会）」 
１１月１７日（日）にcraft松本アトリウムにて初開催です☆ 


詳細はこちら 
（https://www.facebook.com/events/353357291474669/355124404631291/?notif_t=like）

Supermoon

Did you see the Supermoon on May 5-6?

Supermoon comin' up

Very very special moon floatin' in the sky 

Wanna dance with me under this special moon's light?

Wanna kiss me under the special moon?

After getting my dress off

Before soaking in the bathtab

Let's get out and expose the full-body to the full-moon

If two make a sacred promise under the Supermoon

Their love will live in eternity 

Who said so?

I say so, I've just thought of it now

If two make love under the Supermoon

They'll have super special extasy

And who said so?

Me say so, I believe therefore it's true

With my dress off, step out onto the balcony
Special moon's light caress my bare skin with its chilly fingertips

Under the moonlight shower my skin seems luminous
Abundant brilliant than ever before tonight's super special moon is
Act like a space cowboy
Get that Supermoon in my hand 
Making sure no one watching, then
Pour the special moon's light into my body until extasy

今宵Supermoon
空浮かぶはスーパースペシャルなお月様

スペシャルな光の下で誰と踊ろう

スペシャルな月の下で誰とキスしよう

服を脱いでバスタブのお湯に体を浸す前に

スペシャルな月の光に体を預けてみませんか

Supermoonの下で愛を誓い合えば

その愛は永遠に続くって誰がそう言ったの

あたしあたしが今考えたの

Supermoonの下で愛を交わせば

極上最高のExtasy

って誰がそう言ったの

あたしあたしが今そう決めたの

服を脱いでベランダに出て爪先から

スペシャルな月の光が皮膚にひやり纏わりつく

月光浴肌が心なしか発光中

いつもより明るいスーパースペシャルなお月様

スペース・カウボーイ気取りのポーズで

スペシャルな月の光をSupermoon

誰も見ていないこと確かめたら

スペシャルな月の光注ぎこんでExtasy

lyrics written by YuKey

Respect

To respect others' choices is what I often tell myself.



Sometimes, however, it is a little bit difficult thing to do for me



because I tend to, or rather almost automatically, try to control



situations and other persons surrounding me



as I myself hope




So when feeling anger,



 feeling that I have to something to change the situation,



or feeling that I have to take care of them,



for what they choose,



I draw a definite line between the genuine reality existing in front of me



and images and thoughts running around and busily speaking in my mind and



tell myself, 'you know, that is what he/she's chosen




and what you should pay respect to'



yes, that is the realm no one is allowed to invade in




With the words



my mind gets to be peaceful.




then my day gets to be filled with love and peace

                                             made on the last day of 2011 by yukihime

Dialogue with Fear

Whenever we try to do something, we feel fear to do it.

The less we get used to it, the much fear we feel.

I find something inside

What’s your name I ask it

It says I am Fear

I ask it why you’re here

It answers I am here to protect you

Protect from what I ask

From anything possibly hurt you it says

What is possibly hurt me I ask

Anything you try it answers

You’ll be possibly hurt if you try something

So blocking your trying it’s my role

I find something inside

What’s your name I ask it

It says I am Fear

You’ll be denied

You’ll be disregarded

You’ll be beaten

You’ll be hurt, possibly, if you do it Fear says

But I’ll be accepted

I’ll be regarded

It’ll be helpful for someone

It’ll change my world, if flipping them over they mean

I find something inside

What’s your name I ask it

It says I am Fear

It’s all up to myself which one I choose to believe in

No one knows what’s gonna happen tomorrow, even in the next moment

One thing I know true is

Nothing will happen unless something is acted out

In a room

I wrote this inspired by my brother's story.

He got divorced recently and has never regretted his choice,

However, he cried on the other end of the phone. 

Alone in the empty room

I lay down my body on the floor

For the room now I’m just a stranger

She doesn’t like me to be here anymore, here within her

Ahhh in a loud voice I say

My voice echoes throughout the empty room

Slight tremor of the air reminds me of a certain day

The day for the first time we were here in this room together

On that day I yelled exactly right here

Filled with joy and happiness

Slight tremor of the air gently tickled my skin

She and our baby in her womb were smiling by my side

I don’t think any of my decisions wrong

‘Cause it was already written to meet you and be with you in my life

To be parted from you was as well as written in my life

What I did was just found and act them out

But now overflowing memories and times gone by are squeezing my heart

Small puddle of tears appears on the floor

Now alone in the empty room

I see the ghost of my memories fading away

The last one remaining here is me, a stranger

Even the air in the room feels cold and distant to my skin

On that day the place was filled with joy and happiness

Today the place is filled with nothing

I get up to leave the room and

Say thank you with a long low bow to the room we’d lived our days

I don’t think any of my decisions wrong

‘Cause it was already written to meet you and be with you in my life

To be parted from you was as well as written in my life

What I did was just found and act them out

But from somewhere I hear a slight sound of laughing we made on that day

It makes me cry, make my heart aching

I have the universe in myself

Suddenly remember

I have the universe in myself.

The womb is shaped like a heart and



 given a gift



for re-creating the process of the evolution of humankind



within it

And, women have a special gift



A woman can create teeth, hair, or nail all by herself  within her body



did you know it?

see you later

thank you for you coming to us

we now know you’d chosen us as your new family

you knew you would have to go back in a little while

though we were not allowed to spent time for only a little while

you came down to us

I remember that moment which can be never ever forgotten

at that moment we and you were certainly there

now my heart can say thank you for you coming to us

I now know you’d known we’d someday overcome

you’d come to us ‘cause I was me and he was him

you’d been sure we’d certainly overcome

you still exist in our hearts now and forever

so

can you wait for us for a while in your world

we promise to come to you after enjoying this life to the full

see you later