Supermoon

Did you see the Supermoon on May 5-6?

Supermoon comin' up

Very very special moon floatin' in the sky 

Wanna dance with me under this special moon's light?

Wanna kiss me under the special moon?

After getting my dress off

Before soaking in the bathtab

Let's get out and expose the full-body to the full-moon

If two make a sacred promise under the Supermoon

Their love will live in eternity 

Who said so?

I say so, I've just thought of it now

If two make love under the Supermoon

They'll have super special extasy

And who said so?

Me say so, I believe therefore it's true

With my dress off, step out onto the balcony
Special moon's light caress my bare skin with its chilly fingertips

Under the moonlight shower my skin seems luminous
Abundant brilliant than ever before tonight's super special moon is
Act like a space cowboy
Get that Supermoon in my hand 
Making sure no one watching, then
Pour the special moon's light into my body until extasy

今宵Supermoon
空浮かぶはスーパースペシャルなお月様

スペシャルな光の下で誰と踊ろう

スペシャルな月の下で誰とキスしよう

服を脱いでバスタブのお湯に体を浸す前に

スペシャルな月の光に体を預けてみませんか

Supermoonの下で愛を誓い合えば

その愛は永遠に続くって誰がそう言ったの

あたしあたしが今考えたの

Supermoonの下で愛を交わせば

極上最高のExtasy

って誰がそう言ったの

あたしあたしが今そう決めたの

服を脱いでベランダに出て爪先から

スペシャルな月の光が皮膚にひやり纏わりつく

月光浴肌が心なしか発光中

いつもより明るいスーパースペシャルなお月様

スペース・カウボーイ気取りのポーズで

スペシャルな月の光をSupermoon

誰も見ていないこと確かめたら

スペシャルな月の光注ぎこんでExtasy

lyrics written by YuKey

Respect

To respect others' choices is what I often tell myself.



Sometimes, however, it is a little bit difficult thing to do for me



because I tend to, or rather almost automatically, try to control



situations and other persons surrounding me



as I myself hope




So when feeling anger,



 feeling that I have to something to change the situation,



or feeling that I have to take care of them,



for what they choose,



I draw a definite line between the genuine reality existing in front of me



and images and thoughts running around and busily speaking in my mind and



tell myself, 'you know, that is what he/she's chosen




and what you should pay respect to'



yes, that is the realm no one is allowed to invade in




With the words



my mind gets to be peaceful.




then my day gets to be filled with love and peace

                                             made on the last day of 2011 by yukihime

Dialogue with Fear

Whenever we try to do something, we feel fear to do it.

The less we get used to it, the much fear we feel.

I find something inside

What’s your name I ask it

It says I am Fear

I ask it why you’re here

It answers I am here to protect you

Protect from what I ask

From anything possibly hurt you it says

What is possibly hurt me I ask

Anything you try it answers

You’ll be possibly hurt if you try something

So blocking your trying it’s my role

I find something inside

What’s your name I ask it

It says I am Fear

You’ll be denied

You’ll be disregarded

You’ll be beaten

You’ll be hurt, possibly, if you do it Fear says

But I’ll be accepted

I’ll be regarded

It’ll be helpful for someone

It’ll change my world, if flipping them over they mean

I find something inside

What’s your name I ask it

It says I am Fear

It’s all up to myself which one I choose to believe in

No one knows what’s gonna happen tomorrow, even in the next moment

One thing I know true is

Nothing will happen unless something is acted out

In a room

I wrote this inspired by my brother's story.

He got divorced recently and has never regretted his choice,

However, he cried on the other end of the phone. 

Alone in the empty room

I lay down my body on the floor

For the room now I’m just a stranger

She doesn’t like me to be here anymore, here within her

Ahhh in a loud voice I say

My voice echoes throughout the empty room

Slight tremor of the air reminds me of a certain day

The day for the first time we were here in this room together

On that day I yelled exactly right here

Filled with joy and happiness

Slight tremor of the air gently tickled my skin

She and our baby in her womb were smiling by my side

I don’t think any of my decisions wrong

‘Cause it was already written to meet you and be with you in my life

To be parted from you was as well as written in my life

What I did was just found and act them out

But now overflowing memories and times gone by are squeezing my heart

Small puddle of tears appears on the floor

Now alone in the empty room

I see the ghost of my memories fading away

The last one remaining here is me, a stranger

Even the air in the room feels cold and distant to my skin

On that day the place was filled with joy and happiness

Today the place is filled with nothing

I get up to leave the room and

Say thank you with a long low bow to the room we’d lived our days

I don’t think any of my decisions wrong

‘Cause it was already written to meet you and be with you in my life

To be parted from you was as well as written in my life

What I did was just found and act them out

But from somewhere I hear a slight sound of laughing we made on that day

It makes me cry, make my heart aching

I have the universe in myself

Suddenly remember

I have the universe in myself.

The womb is shaped like a heart and



 given a gift



for re-creating the process of the evolution of humankind



within it

And, women have a special gift



A woman can create teeth, hair, or nail all by herself  within her body



did you know it?

see you later

thank you for you coming to us

we now know you’d chosen us as your new family

you knew you would have to go back in a little while

though we were not allowed to spent time for only a little while

you came down to us

I remember that moment which can be never ever forgotten

at that moment we and you were certainly there

now my heart can say thank you for you coming to us

I now know you’d known we’d someday overcome

you’d come to us ‘cause I was me and he was him

you’d been sure we’d certainly overcome

you still exist in our hearts now and forever

so

can you wait for us for a while in your world

we promise to come to you after enjoying this life to the full

see you later

Everything's gonna be alright

Once I had stood on a crossroads all alone

to decide which way I would take



Knowing I had to take the way really wanted to go



my heart was unstable



'Cause I had no idea how I would be in the future



 if following the voice my innermost whispering to me



At the same time me knowing



if taking no action nothing would be changed and



I would have no need to undertake risks and



never be fulfilled

One day in the ambivalence I heard a song flowing out from the radio



The song singing



'Everything's gonna be alright.'



Like a magical spell the words soothed me and



encouraged me to trust myself



trust the way I'd chosen




Later the word turned out to be true




Just feeling what you are feeling in this moment



paying respect for own genuine feeling



and following it with trust



Then you find it really true

The first and last

That morning

in the bed,

we were lying

I was fondling my swollen belly,

as if the belly were my baby in the womb

Smiling calmly, he put his large, warm hand on my hand on my belly 

Then

from the inside, the baby in my womb kicked my belly

I can still remember the touch freshly in my palm

She truly existed

Remembering her strong kick, I always feel so

and believe 

she tried to tell us  

that she was really existing there,

because she knew she had to leave soon

That is the first and last moment 

me, he, and her physically shared

in this world

We were in happiness,

we experienced happiness itself at that moment  

Heart aching

His eyes were cold like a stone in the depth of winter river

Tone of his voice sounded strange to me

Though we were walking side by side

you were far away from me

Heart aching aching aching

The only thing I can do to save me is showing him how he makes me distress

And somewhere in my mind

I know



 it won't work 

in fact it will only make the situation worse

But I have no alternative

The consistent mind-moving pattern swelled within me 

so disgusting, but I've for some reason chained myself to it  

Despair

Outside the window it is still dark

I am sitting on the bed and see the river with absent eyes

That ever-calm river is now flowing in a rage 

The pouring rain and the raging flow are only the thing moving in this world

Why am I here alone

in this everything white square room

Where is my baby

She was certainly in my body until a while ago

She's gone alone in a sudden, in a really sudden

And I am sitting here in the white room alone 

just fondling the flattened belly,

in which my now-vacant womb crying in despair

blissed, blissed, blissed

 'The Kiss,' painted by Gustav Klimt,

makes me feel as if I was the woman in the picture

Imaging the picture in the bed is my secret pleasure,

it makes me feel better and better

He in the picture embodies the sexual essentiality of a man



and she, also embodies the sexual essentiality of a woman

blissed, blissed, blissed

I see my beloved man in him and transfer myself on her

Love to be loved by a man with eternal love and lust only for me

like the man expressing toward the woman



in the eternity of this moment

Scent of Him.

When sensing a certain scent I always remember a memory 

Sometimes in a crowd, sometimes when someone passing by, and sometimes in a dream

The scent is the one once I had often breathed in

The scent is the very one once I found around me whenever he hugged me

It reminds me of his arms holding me tight, 

his sigh making my body hot,

his whisper making me shiver,

 and every moment I spent with him 

still now, even after he left me

And the scent always almost makes my tears flow out 

even in a crowd, even in front of someone, and even in my dream

Eternity

Eternity.

What a beautiful ring it has!

I can see the great depth of the Galaxy in the word.

It reminds me of eternal spread of the Universe.

Once I saw eternity while being in his arms.

I was himself, and he was myself, and we were the universe itself.

Pearl

This video is a ballad version of 'Pearl.' 

The song, in fact not this version but original version,

always makes me half accelerated and half somehow saddened.  




The song was ringing in my brain while I made a collage below. 

Just before dawn, the darkest moment in the universe

I jump onto the highway to drop my pearls

I’m somehow anxious, I’m so lonely

Darkness embraces my loneliness in her shell

The morning makes me blind whenever it comes

So I'll have to do it before melting away into the morning,

making me blind, dazzling morning

I sowed a seed in the garden of love

The sky has frequently watered it but flowers haven’t bloomed yet

Me scumsucker have no certainty on almost anything

But I'm sure I'm free enough to complain of my restricted life

Before the morning sucks me up into his dazzling sunshine

Highway just stretches out before my eyes

The sight is getting blurred before my eyes

Will this road go beyond the borderline if I drive on and on?

Hey night, don't give way to the morning

I've got no answer yet

The dazzlingly emerged morning paints my pearls in iridescent light

Sunk in it, I'm melting away into the brilliant sea of pearls

I missed talking to you again

I missed a night again

Original lyrics written by Kazuya Yoshii

Inspired-translation by yukihime

Love Sauce

When I listen to this song, always I imagine that 

he kisses, kisses, and kisses me under a ray of moonlight from the window.

One night I meet you alone in the city

You are wandering around the night full of tears and loneliness

Girl, stop that crying, why don’t you come to my room?

You’ll feel a little bit better then, I bet

Wanna eat something? I WANNA eat right now

Let me see your tearful face

so I can wipe the tears of love on your face with my handkerchief

Ah, what I really intend to is almost getting revealed

And you, pretending like getting seized with a sudden impulse

At the moment what I have in mind and what you are thinking meet

I kiss you

Pouring my affluent love sauce on you,

Ms. Innocence, I eat you

With my gleaming well-used knife and fork

I lick you, I suck you, I eat you up to the bone

How you are feeling now I understand very well

Poor little girl, your man is kind of a beast, isn't he?

There’s no one who doesn’t have devil in their heart so you shouldn't easily trust someone

Not only in a quarrel but also in a sex both sides are to blame

Hearing my words you nod in tears

Unbearably, irresistibly cute you are

So I kiss you

Pouring my bursting love sauce on you

My Innocence, I eat you

As I greedily want your lips again and again

you show an embarrassed smile on the tearful face

The brilliant shining moon outside, I feel like eating it out as I'm doing now to you

Now I’m full up, my heart is also full up

‘I ate you because I love you,’ I always think so at this moment

I feel pain, a little bit pain

I feel lonely, a little bit lonely

I eat you with love sauce

I taste you with love sauce

Original lyrics written by Kazuya Yoshii
Inspired-translation by yukihime